Now,
an empty feeling.
Things are different now. When I see you, I'll run away. Hide. Scamper. Escape. Run. I will run away now.
I am ashamed for the things I have not told you, but truly, is it my fault? Ofcourse it is. I should have been honest with you. But how can I, when I, myself, am unsure of the situation? When I myself am unsure if it is a yes or a no.But an answer still you needed, and an answer still I did not provide.
I have fallen in love. Haven't I?
In love with your sublime beauty? No. With your personality? Not there yet.
But with you, as a whole.
I promised when I was younger never to fall in love. Girls are pests, I used to say. But what about now? What is this foreign emotion I am feeling? Why am I feeling this?
They say, once in awhile, another roh which you have known, another roh, u were once friends with in the roh world, will come to you. Talk to you. Befriend you.This roh, who was once your friend, separated by worlds HE created. By the entity we know as time.
And the effect is instantaneous. You feel as if you have known the person for a long time. As if you have seen him before. As if you have met him before. As if you were already friends. The moment you hold a conversation with him/her, it strikes a chord. You feel excited, anxious, maybe even loved-at some point. And you reciprocate this to the other, without you noticing.
You are, was, and forever will be that roh.
Have you felt that before?
Maybe not.
The thing about this whole fiasco, is that...
I am confused of the state I am in.
I don't know how to explain things to you anymore. I don't know how to tell you straight in the face the answer. An honest answer you wanted, an honest one-from my prespective-I gave.
You take care now.
Take good care of yourself.